And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

So I've been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend. He's such an ass sometimes, it drives me crazy.
On a better note, I've been good so far today, I'm gonna fast today, maybe tomorrow. I want to lose 15 lbs this month. I need to. I need to get back on track. according to losertown, if I eat 500 calories a day I will be 136lbs by march 28th.

I'm so weak. I'm so stressed out lately so I've been stuffing my face every chance I get. I wish I was one of those people who can't eat when they're upset or stressed and lose a lot of weight, but I'm the opposite, I eat eat eat and get fatter. FML.

Today is a new day, think skinny lovers xo

Ugh

So I've been bingeing again, no purging though.But I need to stop, haven't stepped on the scale but my boyfriend mentioned that I looked bigger last night. Ugh I think I was in denial, telling myself I don't look any bigger but obviously I do. I really need to get my shit together. I've had 80 cals today. Gonna keep it as low as possible.

Stay strong ladies, stronger than I am xo

Empty

I ate normally for a few days, fuck that I felt huge. I was 154 yesterday, still wayy to high. I need to motivate myself so if I get into the 140's and stay there for a week I'm going to buy a tanning package, I love tanning. I'm pale as fuckk right now and I look horrible. I'm not one of those girls that look good pale, I look like I'm dragged out and tired all the time, zombie like.

I went to my parents yesterday and I don't know why but they love to make me eat, even though I'm huge. I'm so weak, I gave in, then of course I couldn't stop. So on my way home I stopped into a store, rented a movie, and got 2 bags of chips, cookies, cheesies and diet pepsi. I purged it all. I hate purging but when it comes back I find it so hard to stop. I wish I was strong enough to just not eat but I'm so weak. After I purge I feel so calm and better. Empty.

I haven't had anything to eat today and I plan on keeping it that way. I need a fasting day. I'm gone to catch up on the blogs I follow.

Skinny thoughts lovas xo