I've been on blogger before but can't remember my old password, or even username for that matter. Oh well I like staying anonymous anyways. This is my blog I am going to write what I want and if you don't like it don't read it, simple enough.
To get to the point I have very disordered eating. I restrict calories, get to a weight I'm comfortable with, then binge until I'm not happy again. I don't want this to be the case anymore, I want to get to my goal weight and I'm going to stay there.
I'm going to get there however I want and don't want to get shit on about it. This time last year I was 132 lbs, not where I wanted to be but the lowest I was since I can remember. So I got comfortable, people were telling me I looked great and all that good shit and when I weighed myself last week I was 160lbs. On a 5'3 frame that is unacceptable.
So I tried the eating healthy bullshit but of course I have no willpower with so much freedom, I find it easier to restrict so that's where I am now. Yesterday I was 158lbs, ate 560 cals and this morning I was 154. I don't know if that's even possible but that's what my scale said. Tomorrow I'm hoping for lower.
My plan right now is to start at lower than 1000 calories and work on it from there. I want to get back to 132 then my final goal is 110lbs. Right now I'm working towards 145.
So that's it for today.
Hey, you said you were on Blogger before? do you remember the blog name?
ReplyDeletenope, I tried everything I thought it would be but couldn't remember it, and I had a separate e-mail for the blog but I can't remember that either blahh
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